Kaitlin...today was a day where I was getting through it...trying not to think about it...and then, out of nowhere, something punched me right in my heart. Something that reminded me that I can call, but you won't answer...I can text, but will never have a response. I can't see you here. And I need you. I'm so angry...a rage greater than anything I've ever felt before. A rage to the level I could fight God himself and win, if it meant I could have you back. Did you know what you meant, always meant, and will always mean to me? Did you? I'm so afraid...so afraid that you didn't know. I hope you can see my heart. I hope you are so free...but that you know us, your family, more completely than you ever did before...I want you to see my heart, know my heart, know my unconditional love for you. Nobody will ever remind me of you...nobody will ever know what I feel for you, perhaps besides yourself and God. I can't even explain it. Kaitlin...life flashed quickly before my eyes when I lost you...our life...and it went by so quickly. I know the days will be long ahead of me...but really, the years, in ways will go so fast. I hope I can make you proud while I am here...I hope people will see the best of me and see YOU...I hope you will be with me during the best experiences I may have ahead and experience it with me...be free, Kaitlin, but know us, know our love...be with us if you can...but enjoy every blessing that heaven has to offer, it is YOURS now...I don't want this to be true. All I've wanted, what I've prayed for, for so long...was for you to be well. I didn't want it this way, believe me. I need you. I will always need you. And you will always be a part of me, nothing can take that away, not time, not death, not heaven...I love you so much, Kaitlin. I'm here for you, always...come to me.